Grieving the Person I Was Before Chronic Illness

  “Click, click” is all I hear while I sit in front of my computer screen biting my lower lip trying my hardest not to cry (telling myself I need to be strong). “Oh no,” I can feel a tear fall down my face; there is the beginning of me grieving the person I used … Continue reading Grieving the Person I Was Before Chronic Illness

What I Need You To Know About Your ‘Good Intentions’

  I hear my cellphone ring on a Friday evening, I look down and I’m hesitant to answer because it’s you. I answer because I care about you and I know you care about me too. “Hey, do you want to meet up tonight for dinner, maybe a drink or something?”, you say. Silence comes … Continue reading What I Need You To Know About Your ‘Good Intentions’

What Happens If You Come Over Unannounced – Spoonie Edition

My phone rings and it’s a family member on the line saying, “Hey, I am right by your house, I am going to stop by and see you!”. “Great, of course I want to see you, see you soon”, I say. My heart sinks into my stomach and panic has just set in. When you … Continue reading What Happens If You Come Over Unannounced – Spoonie Edition

My Answer To You, When You Ask “Why I Don’t Have Real Kids?”

  I can hear the whispers and I can see the laugher. The way you look at me when you pass then look into the stroller I am pushing and you see furry animals instead of a human baby. I feel embarrassed and the look on your face makes me feel like I should be … Continue reading My Answer To You, When You Ask “Why I Don’t Have Real Kids?”

How Chronic Illness Showed Me My Best Quality: Perseverance

I can say growing up I never really had a ‘niche’. I was always trying new activities and trying to fit in. Since I was a little girl, I felt like I was an outcast or I just wasn’t up to ‘par’ like the other kids. As I continued to grow I ended up finding … Continue reading How Chronic Illness Showed Me My Best Quality: Perseverance

When Lupus Makes You Break Up With Your First Love: the Sun

When I was younger, people used to always compliment my skin tone. I would have so many family and friends tell me how no matter how long I would stay in the sun, I would never burn. I never used sunscreen and it would take me days to look like I even went into the … Continue reading When Lupus Makes You Break Up With Your First Love: the Sun

Please Don’t Mistake My Honesty About My Illness for Negativity

Life constantly teaches us lessons. Whether they are lessons we want or ones we didn’t think we needed. I am truly one of those people who see the glass both half empty and half full. I am neither extremely negative nor positive. To be honest I’ve always been right in between because I see life … Continue reading Please Don’t Mistake My Honesty About My Illness for Negativity