It hurts. It feels as if my heart has been ripped from my chest and stepped on right in front of me. I feel hollow, confused, lost, and devastated. Yet again, it’s another diagnosis. I never knew that it would just keep adding up. That my life would become a game of whack-a-mole. There was…
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My Playlist For When Chronic Illness Gets Me Down
Ever since I was a little girl, I always loved music! Whether you could imagine this or not? I was in my middle school band and I could actually play several instruments. I was always so proud that I could read music and follow along. Even at the young of an age I was…
Dear Husband From Your Chronically Ill Wife(Valentine’s Day Letter)
Dear Husband, I would like to first say, I love you. That I couldn’t be more thankful nor grateful for anything else in my life as I am with you. We’ve spent many Valentine’s together and I couldn’t be happier. Though this one feels different. I am not sure why, but it just does. …
You Are Not Alone ( From Another Chronically Ill Person To You)
You, sitting there with your hands covering your face, wiping the tears from your eyes, breathing heavily, feeling ever so broken inside; the one who is chronically ill, living with chronic pain. I see you. I am actually one of you. And I am terribly sorry that your pain has gotten so bad. As someone…
My Open Letter To Lupus
Dear Lupus, I am writing to tell you that I want you out of my life! I am sick and tired of you interfering and wreaking havoc in my body. I hate the way you’ve changed my entire life! I hate the way I no longer do many of the things or activities I used…
I Am Not The Grinch, But I Do Lack Christmas Cheer – Spoonie Edition
I promise you, I am not the Grinch. Though you might think I am if you see me around Christmas time. I am one of those people, yes, the one who skips through the radio stations so fast, so they don’t accidently land on the Christmas station. I walk into the stores and feel like…
All I Want For Christmas- Is A Better Life With Lupus
It’s the holiday season. Everyone is cheerful and filled with glee. The stores are busy, almost everyone has packages outside their door, and beautiful holiday lights that make the night sky glisten. Everyone is starting to ask what you want as a gift for the holidays! Do you want new shoes, new top, or some…
Top 5 Everyday Beauty Essentials – Spoonie Tools Edition
* Please note these are just opinions and recommendations based on my use. I am not a doctor or claiming that these are going to work for everyone, just based on myself. Please note that I am not responsible if you do not like or if this product does not agree with you. These are…
How Lupus Makes Me Feel Grateful For My Birthday
It’s November, my favorite month of the year. I think it’s truly the most beautiful time of the year. A reminder that life is always changing and ongoing. Not only is my favorite holiday in November, but it’s also my birthday month. This year I will be 27 years old. I can’t explain why, but…
My Life and Lessons with Lupus
I’m stuck. Stuck in a body that cannot keep up with its aspirations. I am only 26, where age has become nothing but a number. I say that because I almost never feel my own age. In reality, my age fluctuates from 56-86. But, it never stops me from trying. If Lupus has taught me anything,…
One Tough Spoonie 