Ever since I was a little girl, I always loved music! Whether you could imagine this or not? I was in my middle school band and I could actually play several instruments. I was always so proud that I could read music and follow along. Even at the young of an age I was always moved by music. As I have grown and life has decided to chew me up and spit me back out a couple of times, I find myself even more drawn to music.
Maybe, its just me. But I truly feel this connection to songs and the lyrics of them. It sounds weird… but it is like I can actually feel the words. I can tell you so many songs make me feel all different types of emotions, while many make me cry.
As someone who suffers greatly from chronic illness and mental health issues, some days I find myself struggling to want to keep going. I face challenges that make me question why I keep showing up to get pushed right back down? This is not something I like to admit, but this struggle is one I see more often than I ever care to say.
I will be honest and let you know that some parts of my life can be scary! That I am pretty much scared most of the time… I mean, who wouldn’t be? It is constantly something, doctors visits, exams, scans, tests, ER visits, medications, side effects, reactions, waiting, being poked at, and more. Days turn into weeks, where the weeks turn into months of pure chaos in which there is basically no break from this pain. When times get really hard I find myself in darkness with no relief.
Although, I am here to tell you that when there is literally always something wrong with you, its frightening, you don’t even get finished with one obstacle before another comes crashing down! Specifically with my Lupus, it is so hard to figure out what is exactly the problem. It messes up your body completely and brings its not-so-friendly friends with it.
I run into days where I need a reminder to find the strength within myself. I need to find ways to pick myself up even when I don’t want to. A reminder that I have come this far and I am not giving up. One of the greatest things I could ever have done is — make a playlist.
I know the sounds silly, but it helps me. This play list helps me find my strength and gives me a good cry when I need one. Believe me, I have to cry. If I don’t, its not good for me. We all have to let out the hurt, keeping it bottled in is not something I would recommend.
So here is my list, this is me sharing it with the world…
I hope this helps you keep fighting!
I pray it helps you get through whatever obstacle you are facing!
I want you see you get through this!
And I wish you could see how strong you really are.
Most of all, I hope when you face darkness, that you may also find the light.
- Fight Song – Rachel Platten
- This Is Me – The Greatest Showman
- Roar– Katy Perry
- Brave – Sara Bareilles
- You Say – Lauren Daigle
- Happier – Marshmello Ft. Bastille
If you have any songs that help you, I would love to know! I would love to add some of your songs to my playlist! Let’s help one another out!